If indeed I do have this more serious form of cancer – this genetic predisposition toward producing a protein that feeds cancer cells – then I am not going to worry. I am not going to become mired in self-pity or even pious prayer.
Instead I am going to be me, to live, to rejoice in the gift that I bring to the world and life. I am going to receive and enjoy everything that is given to me.
And I’m not going to do things that I don’t want to do.
(It may be that I need to start planning that trip to the Clairvaux prison in France.)